Lists and More Lists

I have always been a list person. I make lists for everything. List of things to do. Lists of things I have already done. Lists of things that I may do in the future.

Turns out, when you have an infant crossing things off your list is very difficult. And when you are moving into a new house in a month the list of things you need to do grows exponentially. As someone with an A-type personality this has been very difficult for me to deal with. Around 9 or 10 at night when Bret relieves me from Alyson duty and takes the early late night feeding shift I pass by my long list of things to do on the kitchen table before retreating to the bedroom for some shuteye and it drives me nuts.

Today my plan was to go to the bank and return two phone calls. I have a bunch of checks to cash and I wanted to start an account for Alyson with the gifts she has received so far. I also need a bunch of quarters to do laundry on Wednesday when my folks visit and I can actually leave the apartment for a few minutes. But Alyson had another plan. After sleeping from 8 - 11:15 she decided to spend the afternoon cluster feeding and I have been basically attached to her until now while she is happily playing on her activity mat with the hiccups. Adorable!

So far I have returned one phone call, done the dishes and written this blog post. I guess what I have finally realized is that I really need to chill out about my list. So Alyson's baby book isn't completely filled out yet or the pile of laundry in my bedroom is spilling into the bathroom. Instead, moving forward my new plan is to try to complete two tasks on my list everyday. (of course that doesn't include activities of daily living like eating or showering - these are musts!) If I can do that the day should be considered a success. Of course, that is coming from someone who hasn't yet showered today and is still wearing maternity clothes not because she doesn't fit into any of her regular clothes but because she doesn't have time to sort through what fits and what doesn't.